First off, thank you for your kind words this past week. I took an unexpected hiatus from the blog due to an overwhelming emotional week.
Last Wednesday, I traveled to Jacksonville, Florida to surprise my family at my brother’s wedding. It was AMAZING!! I got to hug my big brother, hang out with my new sister, but I thoroughly enjoyed getting to know my two new nephews. They are adorable and just light up my world.
This little guy is the one that was thrilled that I saw Santa on the highway. He taught me all about Angry Birds, said the pledge of allegiance, and counted to 10 in Spanish. He turns four on New Years Day. Yup, I’m a proud Aunt!!!
I took the red eye flight Wednesday night so I could get back to work for Thursday morning. I caught a cold. I am still trying to get over this monster. Four boxes of tissues and 8 days later, I’m just now starting to feel a little bit better. No fever, less body aches, but I still have a lingering cough and snarfy nose. Yes, snarfy. However, it is one of the reasons why I haven’t been on any social media sites. It takes great strength to even sit up. I am a big proponent of taking care of yourself first, which is one of the reasons why I’ve been absent.
On top of it all, on Thursday, I found out I (and 20+ coworkers) was laid off from my job of almost 5 years. I found out on Thursday, instead of Wednesday thanks to the good friends at work who stopped them from calling me while I was out of town for my brothers wedding. I am grateful for the people I have met and the opportunities I was given. I am trying to cope with this the best I can. Its weird to think I will never work with the same group of people in the same capacity again. Its strange to wake up in the morning and not drive the same commute. Its unimaginable to not have the ability to have a conversations with some of the most amazing people whom I got to know.
Its been difficult to get into the swing of things again. Partially because I am coping with this loss, but also because I have been sick. Its been depressing, quite frankly. But I’m grateful. I’m grateful for all of the wonderful texts, phone calls, and hugs I’ve received in the last week. I’m grateful friends have asked for my resume and are pushing it out. I’m grateful I have COBRA (albeit expensive, but not as expensive as it could be), which will allow me to continue my arthritis treatment. I am grateful for the opportunities, advances, and education I learned while I was at my former employer and I do not hold any grudges.
I am just trying to make sense of it all, but most of all, I’m glad I’m at home and in the arms of my husband. He’s an amazing man; my rock through all of this. I am very grateful that he is by my side and continues to encourage me through all of this.
I am not a huge religious person, but lately, I’m finding comfort in Him. With that said, I leave you this: Jeremiah 29:11. “For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”
I have hope.